Dss. Norma P. Dollaga, KASIMBAYAN
Gn 2:7-9; 3:1-7
Ps 51:3-4, 5-6, 12-13, 17
Rom 5:12-19
Mt 4:1-11
Magical. Spectacular. Powerful. Center of Attraction. Rock Star.
Are they bad? Is it bad to dream to be on the top?
In seeking answers to these, maybe a question can be posited: “para saan, at para kanino?” (for what and for whom?).
You want to be the wealthiest person in the world? At whose cost? You want to be the super imperialist country with sophisticated weapons? To whose benefit? You want a charter change? At whose value? You want a position of privilege and power in the bureaucracy? At whose gain? You want to control the supply and trade of onions? At whose profit? You want to be popular? At whose sacrifice?
We all have wilderness episodes in our lives. The sharpening of contradictions as we take options in life’s journey shapes our being. The contradictions could not be such a cool, enjoyable moment – but perhaps, a lamenting period in our journey, loaded with intellectual, spiritual, and emotional components and yes with a political tone. After all, the choice we make reveals a political standpoint.
This year, we are remembering the 37th anniversary of People Power. We celebrate the courage, tenacity, and wisdom of those who led us to victory. But, I am sure that those who sacrificed and genuinely served the interest of the people had their moments of “wilderness experience.” The threats, the risks, and the dangers may have swayed them to doubt the effectiveness of what they do. The temptation of non-sustainable food relief rather than pursuing economic salvation from neo-liberal policies, fame ( to be worshiped by the masses) , and instantaneous victory, were the things they must have confronted. They have overcome those doubts and emerged victorious. Now, those threats, risks and dangers were real to many activists as they were before.
An activist, a revolutionary, and a prophet must have gone through a series of “wilderness” experiences, and each must have gone through the process of personal and political remolding to achieve the deepest and highest service to others. Those who chose not to remain silent over the atrocities of the dictator, knew that to achieve a people’s victory, a process of organizing and mobilizing people cannot be done in haste. That was why those who participated in defying and resisting Marcos the dictator went through the arduous, painful, and difficult process of immersing with people- to humbly learn with them, and take courses of action with them. It cannot be like “throwing yourself down so that you will not strike your foot against a stone even as angels will protect you.” There was no deception. No magical spectacular show of self-indulgence. They who smelled like sheep knew what it is to be hungry and persecuted with people.
Jesus, in his journey, was confronted with temptations. As anyone who genuinely loves the people, Jesus tested himself –how far his inner strength would overcome his vulnerabilities. Personal ambitions can often distract the ability to carry on the mission. This temptation is real and part of the growing pains. Anyone who had an experience of overcoming this can share how she or he addressed it without guilt-tripping or blaming the people surrounding him. Facing the contradictions of an activists life inevitably come and has to be confronted. The gift and power to choose and take action are determined by the depth of love one gives to the very people who have been victims of oppression and exploitation.
It is also true that the agents of evil are always around and within. They can use poverty, hardships, threats, the family, and loved ones as hostages so that the followers of TRUTH will give up. The agents of evil can use laws, prisons, the militaristic scheme to harass today’s prophets, activists, and even revolutionaries and tag them as terrorists. The wilderness moments are indeed around and within. Our prayers, solidarity, and our oneness with the oppressed are helpful in these days of torment and terror.